lost

Am currently feeling v depressed, lost and confused. Nothing seems right and I feel so incredibly unhappy and to top it off I cant even cry! How pathetic.

I wish I were a better person but for ages now, all I can think is: I am not good enough. Never have been according to so many people, and it seems no matter what I do, never will be.

I just wanna get on with my life (cos I have no choice but to go on) and just be alone. People are not worth the hassle - it just hurts too damn much.

Ya Allah, give me the strength to make it through this life with a smile on my face; Ya Allah, give me the strength to carry the burdens you have placed on me; Ya Allah, give me the strength not to break, even though I feel my heart is breaking a thousand times. O Allah, You are the Merciful, have Mercy on me. Make me a better person, a better Muslim and a more loveable person. Ya Allah, save me from pain. Ameen