grounded

ok its official - I've been grounded for far too long. Normally I go abroad on holiday every year and this year I havn't, on top of which, I can't see myself managing to save enough money to actually go either. It sucks!
I love Britain, tis home - but I NEED to get away; quite desperately. Need to go to another country, explore a new culture, a new place.... ugh.

But on the plus side, I have now moved into a nice new flat with my dad (weirdness!) that is 30 secs from my workplace - how cool is that?! The flat is nice and well, nice. lol - not much more to it really.
I have learnt a lot in the last few years of living - foremost of which is, you can live and put up with almost anything when u put ur mind to it. And this flat -well, no trouble at all! :-)

Now living with my dad - interesting... Havn't done in this in, oh, 4 or 5 years! I have not lived with someone telling me what to do or when to do it in years and its weird living with someone who can do that now. Even tho he has been pretty chilled out about it so far. He has imposed a 10pm curfew! 10pm - thats well early!! Still, could be worse!

Sometimes the journey to this flat has been beyond depressing and I dont think my dad realises what he put me through "to teach me how tough the world is". He has no idea to the depths my mind sunk to, nor how depressed I became - to him, alls well that ends well. yes I guess i am bitter - do I have the right to be? I think so. When he could have been there as a helping and supporting hand, he decided to teach me a lesson of life, of toughness, of independence, by making it all so much harder. Well... guess I'v learnt a few lessons.

Lesson No 1: Never ever trust the man in your life - he will always let you down, if not beat u over the head with a stick of your trust and stab u in the back, leaving u to bleed out and die. All the while he thinks he is doing u a favour and making u "better".
Lesson No2: Never trust a man in your family.
Lesson No 3: Be careful how you chose ur friends - I was lucky, Alhamdulillah, to have some of the best friends Allah could have blessed me with.
Lesson No 4: Allah never gives u a burden you cannot bear. He never said it'd be easy.
Lesson No 5: After hardship comes ease - thats the promise. Thats the truth!

so...

Another good thing is that it is somewhere I can have my friends over and not worry and just chill out. Kirsten has been over a few times already and it is just so very nice having her popping in after work; the two of us just chilling.

This is what I like. Now lets hope I can sort out my finances. Then I'll be all set to conquer... my life.