I dont know whether it is sad or stupid that I am happy the doc found things wrong with me just so that I know this. lol - probably both!
Anyway - yes u read right, its "things" plural. More than one thing was wrong with my blood test results but thats ok cos I am just happy to know what it is happening inside me!! Alhamdulillah! Anyways not all the results are back and what seems to be wrong seems to be treatable so I am lucky, Alhamdulillah.
I am also gonna have to have a knee operation sometime in the near futu
re to sort out my leg injury - another thing I am glad to know I was not imagining or exaggerating the symptoms of!I was seriously starting to question my character.... honestly, the hardest thing about this whole being ill business wasnt actually being ill but thinking it was all in my head or that I was of such weak character that I was exaggerating it all out of proportion.
I am just so relieved that I am not as weak willed or pathetic as all that - wallahi, so very relieved!!
:-)
So anyways, while it all gets sorted out I get to spend all day everyday in pain, usually its bearable but sometimes it can get downright un-ignorable! And to top it off I am severely lacking in energy due to this crap - not just from being ill all the time as I thought but from the illness itself.
yet still, regardless of the fact that crap is going wrong in my body, I am so so sooooooooo happy I am not imagining things!!!
2 comments:
subhanAllah, Allah really does work in mysterious ways - imagine if u weren't stressing over ur hypochondria and suddenly found out u were ill, yet this way u're actually relieved to find u've been diagnosed with an illness! hope it's nothing too serious inshaAllah xx
i know - just wat i was thinking - ever cloud has a silver lining and Allah truly knows best!!
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