walking

I had my first physio appointment today - it went far smoother than I expected. I expected lots of pain, well there was pain but far less than expected. Apparantly I have a lot of muscle wastage on my "dodgy" leg (my nickname for it!). So maybe it sounds weird but I really kind of enjoyed working my leg and using it again. Ever since the operation I have been lugging it around like some kind of dead weight and finally I can use - even if it is only partially. And the best news yet, I can putg some weight on it finally and walk on it usuing crutches. I was so elated especially since I made some real progress during the appointment. It felt like suh an achievement and it really boosted my motivation to do my physio and I hope I can keep it up! Altho I guess wearing high heels is some way off!

The high I got from my physio achievements has carried me through the day and I got home and checked my teaching applicaion status only to find rejections but I didnt let that hold me back though it was rather disappointing and scarpered my plans. I took the initiaive and applied elsewhere and if dont get in there then I have another place lined up where I could apply hopefully!

And that disappointing news coupled with my newly found motivation prompted me to look elsewhere for ideas and I finally decided to do what I have been putting off doing for lots of little vague excuses -I applied for teaching positions abroad; Teaching English as a second language. Its something I have always wanted to do, it combines two things I like, teaching and travel. I hope that I will, in a few months, be well and able enough to do this.

So I hope I shall get some replies for this soon. I may even do a TEFL course if I can find the time, convenience and the money.

I have decided to stop thinking so much of what can and cannot happen and just do. I have tried to be sensible and do the right thing, what has been expected or what sems to be........ the thing to do but since thats not working too well I shall just do what I want to and see how that goes. I hope this will lead to better opportunities and a happier and possibly more stable life.

Now lets pray and see what happens!