My first week at work!

Well its Friday. Time flies when your having fun....! This is the last day of my first week at work in the Manchester Muslim Prep School.

On Monday, I was really nervous about starting here. Now on Friday, after a whole 5 days of experience, I feel like I'v been here for ages. I feel part of it here. Like I'm part of something good and wholesome. Something worthwhile. Wallahi, it is such a good feeling. A soothe to my soul after everything.

As I write this I can hear the children outside playing. Full of innocence and fun; and I remember the good old days! lol. When the future didn't exist (unless Mum or Dad had promised chocolate or ice cream) and everyday was treated as an adventure. I wish we could retain that innocence and that relentless enthusiasm and optimism for life as we grew up. But unfortunately, it seems to fade as we grow up - we grow jaded and cynical. Its so unfortunate.
No one was a threat when I was a child except for maybe some monster out of my nightmares. Everyone was either a friend or a potential friend.

When I was younger (teens) and lived in my grandparents house I used to have this ONE reoccurring nightmare. I was in the house and I was trapped. There were these wild animals outside trying to get in and basically making my life hell. Anyways, in this nightmare I was trapped and feeling of claustrophobia was immense; and it increased as the dream went on. (ok so the scary creatures were more like bulls, lions and tigers - but this cat is kinda uniquely scary!) I only recently thought back to the dream and realised why I dreamed it:
I was essentially very unhappy in that house and felt trapped by life and the circumstances I was in. I couldnt leave (the wild animals would get me!) and I didn't want to stay (the claustrophobia).

Its amazing was things and images and dreams the subconscious makes up to represnt our reality as we perceive it. Subhanallah

Back to work then...

The children are soooooooooo cute. Little ones, all of them! Cute little Muslims - that are our future. They play. They laugh. They have so much joy in their hearts that it makes our hearts glad to have them in our lives. You just wanna hug and squish them all! lol

Best thing about working in a Prep school: I feel tall cos everyone is about 2 or 3 feet tall!!! :-P